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Name: Jason
Handle: Mieliki
Birthday: 20/07/78
Fav. Color: a wide range of Blue
Have: An adorable wife that resembles Bluehyppo & Stitch (see? definitely adorable.. not to mention hugable!), A computer that's about to break down..due to over-time-abuse
Interesting things happen when we least expect it. Ah well... More of then not, good things come in bundles!
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Happy New Year to All! May your life this year be better than last year's.
 | Grumpy Bear
You are always complaining about something, especially about always having to do all the work, and make the easiest things difficult. Your grumbling can go too far and really hurt those around you. Even though you can be hard to deal with, others like you anyways because you are mysteriously charming and cute when you're mad. You are good at fixing things and are willing to take on large tasks...with a little grumbling of course! | |
posted by Jason @
2:02 PM
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Wednesday, December 31, 2003  |
I've been feeling lost and hollow of late. Not too sure why or what's causing it. There's so many things that seems to creep up to me so subtly that it's like I've just suddenly been dumped into the realm of chaos with everything and anything hitting at me all over at the same time. The sensation's just choking and feeling's very desperate for a release. I'm beginning to feel that I'm losing myself, losing my conscious and my soul... slowly but surely.
I'm not too sure when it has began or what had trigger it to happen. But I noticed that there's changes in myself. Slight but permanent. Mostly has been mentally but thankfully that the most drastic of them all are not in the physical part of me. Now-a-days, I feel the dam that I have carefully constructed over time has begun to weaken and that it would most probably not be able to hold back things that are needed to be kept away. Time, space, environment and needs seem to be the prime agents that have weaken my will considerably.
I'm not too sure how soon it would be before the dam cracks and falls. But by then, I hope there's nobody around to see the ugly side that would be release. Already its hidious influence have been slowly taking its toll in myself. Indirectly, I'm morphing and losing my conscience.
There are times where I would adopt a destructive behaviour; And other times, I'd be a real pain in the butt. Notice now that I have been withdrawing myself even from the world as to limit my hurting the people that I love and would have called friends and family. I can only apologize here itself whilst my sanity is still my own and my will itself for all the wrongs and unpleasant things I have and would have said or done. I no longer take pride in what I do or have care for what is right or wrong. I even laugh and find humor in others' pain and suffering. I'm no longer a good soul and I fear sharing my husk with the other darker side that's waiting for its release.
I seek the strenght both in my will and my sanity to continue fighting against its release if not emerge victorious, but it would probably take an eternity before it can be found. And hence, I do so inwardly and silently.
posted by Jason @
2:58 PM
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Saturday, December 27, 2003 |
Hmm.. any opinion on what this guy's first impression is to you?
He's my colleague and a nice guy.. but too often lives in his own world that makes him seem weird..
Ah heck..
Other matters off hand, Nokia 3650 that I swapped with Shanice is in the factory getting a memory wipe. *sniff sniff*
Would love to get the phone back ASAP. Otherwise she'd not be able to use her MMS service since I'm hogging the Nokia 3300 now..
Apart from all this? hmm.. nothing much has changed. still in the same shithole.. working the same graveyard shift. Got some great people to suffer with me.. yea.. we'd make a great team of colleague cum friends. Anything else...? nah.. life's still a bitch, always had been and always will be
Cheerios
posted by Jason @
1:41 PM
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Sunday, December 14, 2003 |
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